His daze is interrupted by her squirming to get close to him, and he gently pulls her in, cradling her. He feels her hot tears on his neck.
So she enabled this. Allowed it. Perhaps even asked for it. It makes him feel a little better, that she wasn't snatched up against her will in fear, but it doesn't absolve all of it. Would this just happen again and again? Would he constantly wake up to her being hurt so that the city could be safer? The thought of it makes his heart ache. Tears begin to brim in his own eyes, and his breath shakes slightly. These strange and terrible feelings he's never had before threaten to overwhelm him. It was all easier when he pushed people away, kept them at a distance so they would be safe. It was so painfully lonely. He was sad all of the time. But is this any better?
He lowers his face down to kiss her forehead. One of his tears falls onto it. He rests his cheek against it.
It's all so broken.
"I don't want you to be hurt," is all he can choke out. His voice is small and sad and almost childlike.
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Date: 2024-06-24 10:46 pm (UTC)So she enabled this. Allowed it. Perhaps even asked for it. It makes him feel a little better, that she wasn't snatched up against her will in fear, but it doesn't absolve all of it. Would this just happen again and again? Would he constantly wake up to her being hurt so that the city could be safer? The thought of it makes his heart ache. Tears begin to brim in his own eyes, and his breath shakes slightly. These strange and terrible feelings he's never had before threaten to overwhelm him. It was all easier when he pushed people away, kept them at a distance so they would be safe. It was so painfully lonely. He was sad all of the time. But is this any better?
He lowers his face down to kiss her forehead. One of his tears falls onto it. He rests his cheek against it.
It's all so broken.
"I don't want you to be hurt," is all he can choke out. His voice is small and sad and almost childlike.